Sunday, January 22, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
A week gone by
Its already a week since the start of this new year!
This is my 2nd new year celebration after shifting to this new place!
Somehow I'm adapting to this place.
But deep inside I'm missing my very own place!
The place I lived for the last 23 years!
The place I've known since day 1!
Change is inevitable they say!
So this year I am going to enjoy my moments here in this place!
Hey you are not going to be new anymore! :]
Cherish them and add them to my memoirs of the already existing ones! :)
Also, about the resolutions I thought of writing one in each post! :)
Resolution #1: Keep in touch with my friends regularly!
I started it on the eve of New year! :D
Not bad, everything seems nice and refreshing in the initial days!
But truly came to know so much in this 1 week.
Calllllzzzz!
I'm definitely missing my phone and the contacts in it much more. I messaged a few of my friends and also spoke with a few. Fought with a few and teased a few. But couldn't really sleep much that day. There was something blocking my mind for most of the night. :| Way to start the 'Fresh' year!
An expected call but YES it came very late!
Got a call from an unknown number on 1st Jan. I was trying to recollect the number, but no hopes.
So I answered the call only to find the voice very familiar. I was so happy to speak to Deee after ages! My friend, brother and mentor! Where was he so long? But great to talk to him on new year! Took time to fill each other with lots of stories and updates from each other's life. That's when it all hit me! And at that, very hard! :(
He met with an accident before a year and suffered a minor head injury. He dint bother much about it then, trusting his helmet! But he suffered from severe head aches for the next few months and finally fainted one day. That's when he made up his mind to visit the doctor. Very soon he came to know that there was a blood clot and a very critical one and cannot be easily operated on. He was 45kgs when I last met him - when he came home to invite us for his marriage. Even then, my father had warned him to drive home safe. Deja vu!
My evening was totally changed!
He is just 36kgs now. I can't even imagine how weak he is now. The high dosages and regular scans are making him so damn weak. For all that he is going through now, I can just ask for one thing, God, please o please help him!
Engrossed!
We owe you lots!
What more should I say!
College days and bus moments were more amazing because of you bhai!
You're casual manner and down to earth behavior has helped us learn much.
You were not just a brother but an excellent mentor.
A guide, a protector, a sensible person!
We are sincere admirers of your carefree attitude!
God, help him handle all the pains he is going through.
God, give his family the strength to put up with his tantrums now and then and vice-versa.
I don't know how to align my prayer!
All I can ask you is to give him back to us in One Piece!
All we can say is Just take care bhai!
Sincere prayers for you from
M
S
M
and Me!
This is my 2nd new year celebration after shifting to this new place!
Somehow I'm adapting to this place.
But deep inside I'm missing my very own place!
The place I lived for the last 23 years!
The place I've known since day 1!
Change is inevitable they say!
So this year I am going to enjoy my moments here in this place!
Hey you are not going to be new anymore! :]
Cherish them and add them to my memoirs of the already existing ones! :)
Also, about the resolutions I thought of writing one in each post! :)
Resolution #1: Keep in touch with my friends regularly!
I started it on the eve of New year! :D
Not bad, everything seems nice and refreshing in the initial days!
But truly came to know so much in this 1 week.
Calllllzzzz!
I'm definitely missing my phone and the contacts in it much more. I messaged a few of my friends and also spoke with a few. Fought with a few and teased a few. But couldn't really sleep much that day. There was something blocking my mind for most of the night. :| Way to start the 'Fresh' year!
An expected call but YES it came very late!
Got a call from an unknown number on 1st Jan. I was trying to recollect the number, but no hopes.
So I answered the call only to find the voice very familiar. I was so happy to speak to Deee after ages! My friend, brother and mentor! Where was he so long? But great to talk to him on new year! Took time to fill each other with lots of stories and updates from each other's life. That's when it all hit me! And at that, very hard! :(
He met with an accident before a year and suffered a minor head injury. He dint bother much about it then, trusting his helmet! But he suffered from severe head aches for the next few months and finally fainted one day. That's when he made up his mind to visit the doctor. Very soon he came to know that there was a blood clot and a very critical one and cannot be easily operated on. He was 45kgs when I last met him - when he came home to invite us for his marriage. Even then, my father had warned him to drive home safe. Deja vu!
My evening was totally changed!
He is just 36kgs now. I can't even imagine how weak he is now. The high dosages and regular scans are making him so damn weak. For all that he is going through now, I can just ask for one thing, God, please o please help him!
Engrossed!
We owe you lots!
What more should I say!
College days and bus moments were more amazing because of you bhai!
You're casual manner and down to earth behavior has helped us learn much.
You were not just a brother but an excellent mentor.
A guide, a protector, a sensible person!
We are sincere admirers of your carefree attitude!
God, help him handle all the pains he is going through.
God, give his family the strength to put up with his tantrums now and then and vice-versa.
I don't know how to align my prayer!
All I can ask you is to give him back to us in One Piece!
All we can say is Just take care bhai!
Sincere prayers for you from
M
S
M
and Me!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Warning - Long Post ahead!
The
start of 2012 marks great events in the family. Well I've included this as an important thing for me! Till date I haven’t set
resolutions because
The whole point of writing it – that’s to keep a check on what I’m doing. I visit my blog more often than I visit my, well other things! With new additions of so many things this year I think I need the whole of 2012 to sort them according to priority in-order to keep up with all the nice things happening around me.
The concept of losing ‘The Charm’ – Well, did it exist? :p
Of late nothing seems to interest me. I can write loads of I wasn’t like this before a couple years blah… blah stuff. But I don’t want to start with that because I was doing all over well, 2010 and 2011. Being misunderstood is one thing that is such a pain in the …. Well, but to act like everything is at its best is no good either. But to take into account what my current mindset is about all the things happening around me that should make/give some sense.
People Person – Was I? Will I ever remain that?
I’ve been thinking about this for a reasonable time. Now really it’s the time to reason it out. I’ve loved people (damn! I am already writing it like it is over!). This could be because I’ve never had to do so much thinking before I started talking to them, any, for that instance. Unraveling mysterious people usually takes some-time and I loved it because I had met very few people of that genus. Most of the people I know were effusive, so it was always easy to handle such people because I was one among them and not really belonged to the over-sensitive crowd. Things changed over time though. Most of the people I met were so much of the talk-less kind and that they gave me a chance to rant and took the position of listening, which to an extent made me uncomfortable not only was it that way, the worst is this - I started taking responsibility for their mistakes. The great person that I am! :p It’s all so clear now. OMG, I was in outright turmoil for so many months that I did not give myself a chance to explore my problems even 10% chances that I gave for the other people who dint really give a damn about me. People giving me ‘Oh-so-you-did-it’ look and staring pointlessly – what the hell was I even thinking during all those times? OMG, I hurt so and so, I should clear it. Damn, how easily the other was ready to blame me and walk out of it like nothing really happened! To see all this with eyes wide open I can see me there wandering pointlessly with a different picture going on in my head!
Let go of people – Sometimes this is needed.
Do what you like – Anytime, Every-time! Don’t expect applause and recognition immediately.
Reading this after a few months maybe even after a few days may make me think I was in suspended mode for I don’t know how long.
Supposedly you were looking for Resolutions – well, got a week’s time and I am yet to decide the one’s I’m considering taking.
1. I do not
want to torment myself for the whole year if I don’t follow it – precisely cant
end up feeling like a loser.
2. The more
resolutions I make/take the easier I forget them.
3. A
resolution as I’ve heard from others is difficult to keep up as it takes
self-reminders many times and not a teeny bit of procrastination.
4. I’m not
going to add resolutions like not-talking to this list as things have changed a
bit over the couple of years. So looks like I’m already on it.
5. And my 1km
smile as I am nick-named by my school friends doesn’t really appear that
frequently lately. So, am not sure if bringing that back is on the list.
But
this time I am ready for the trial-and-error to happen so that I’ll have
something worthwhile to do for the whole year and also write about it by the
end of 2012! :p Truly this post is a reason for the, ‘what did I do the whole
of 2011?’ post. I am still thinking hard to jot down things that I did in 2011.
Well, that’s definitely going to be a tough one (I have another post to talk
about the past) nevertheless the excitement on planning my resolutions is
keeping my mind occupied now.
The whole point of writing it – that’s to keep a check on what I’m doing. I visit my blog more often than I visit my, well other things! With new additions of so many things this year I think I need the whole of 2012 to sort them according to priority in-order to keep up with all the nice things happening around me.
The concept of losing ‘The Charm’ – Well, did it exist? :p
Of late nothing seems to interest me. I can write loads of I wasn’t like this before a couple years blah… blah stuff. But I don’t want to start with that because I was doing all over well, 2010 and 2011. Being misunderstood is one thing that is such a pain in the …. Well, but to act like everything is at its best is no good either. But to take into account what my current mindset is about all the things happening around me that should make/give some sense.
People Person – Was I? Will I ever remain that?
I’ve been thinking about this for a reasonable time. Now really it’s the time to reason it out. I’ve loved people (damn! I am already writing it like it is over!). This could be because I’ve never had to do so much thinking before I started talking to them, any, for that instance. Unraveling mysterious people usually takes some-time and I loved it because I had met very few people of that genus. Most of the people I know were effusive, so it was always easy to handle such people because I was one among them and not really belonged to the over-sensitive crowd. Things changed over time though. Most of the people I met were so much of the talk-less kind and that they gave me a chance to rant and took the position of listening, which to an extent made me uncomfortable not only was it that way, the worst is this - I started taking responsibility for their mistakes. The great person that I am! :p It’s all so clear now. OMG, I was in outright turmoil for so many months that I did not give myself a chance to explore my problems even 10% chances that I gave for the other people who dint really give a damn about me. People giving me ‘Oh-so-you-did-it’ look and staring pointlessly – what the hell was I even thinking during all those times? OMG, I hurt so and so, I should clear it. Damn, how easily the other was ready to blame me and walk out of it like nothing really happened! To see all this with eyes wide open I can see me there wandering pointlessly with a different picture going on in my head!
I
am going to shut that over-time voice inside my head which is constantly
annoying me and getting the worse of me pretty easily. I’ll punch you right on
the face if u dare show yourself again! 
Let go of people – Sometimes this is needed.
Whenever
a person who has hurt me in the past or a person who I’ve longed to talk with
appears, I so damn rewind everything and am playing all the tracks of what
happened. Can be called common, that’s what mature people (respect) call it but
trying to still hold to that people without their interest is definitely going
to hurt me more. In this period where people come to you only when some work
has to be done and nothing else but you have a pretty good liking for that
person who do you think has the problem here? See people with what they do only
for that day. But still I do not prefer to be with people who don’t show
respect to other people’s feelings and will continue to do so. Reason –
gradually you will become a senseless person who is ready to say things for the
sake of it. Withdraw from them if you don’t encourage such behavior. People who
want you in their life will definitely make efforts to keep you in their life.
Do what you like – Anytime, Every-time! Don’t expect applause and recognition immediately.
To
achieve what you want you have to be consistent in it for it to happen you
should not be pressurized. Expectations tend to grow every-time. To cope up
with achieving it, we have to do all our tasks with the same outlook (ready to receive
credits and criticisms) we started out the first time. With added experience
discover the elements that can please the audience for standing by you during
all times. Start expecting and you’ll be mentally disturbed and will not have
the fun in completing the task.
Reading this after a few months maybe even after a few days may make me think I was in suspended mode for I don’t know how long.
Supposedly you were looking for Resolutions – well, got a week’s time and I am yet to decide the one’s I’m considering taking.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Time-turner
Things were easier when I had to purchase dress only during occasions,
Things were easier when I dint mind about wearing a comfortable dress ‘n’ number of times,
Things were easier when the shopkeeper had manners to give back even 10p,
Things were easier when people really meant ‘Sorry’ and ‘Thank you’,
Things were easier when friends took efforts to call each other regularly even from landline,
Things were easier when fights were just a moment’s separation,
Things were easier when people accepted each other’s stupidity and still accepted them for whatever they were,
Things were easier when love, affection and passion preceded money,
Things were easier when the whole family lived in a single room and yet not once complained about space,
Things were pleasant when all I had to do was to wait for all the family members to sit down to eat without watching TV,
Things were easier when playing/fighting with cousins’ dint involve cruel intentions,
Things were easier when the fights with friends were just a day’s matter,
Things were easier when friends were more of an extended family,
Things were easier when ‘The mask’ was just a name of the movie!
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